HAPPY WEEKEND EVERYONE (:

Hi everyone! Happy weekend! I hope you all had enjoyable weeks and that you're ready for the weekend to just rest and relax a little (:
I heard some of you are on holiday next week... Jealous!!

Not much happened this week, except I got super annoying with my constant going on about Jack and Finn. Sorry about that.... It's just kind of... Well I don't know how to put it, I know I have a boyfriend, and yep, maybe I shouldn't have gone on about Jack and Finn like I did, especially not in front of him.. But it was a once in a lifetime opportunity, chances are (as sad as it makes me...) I will probably never meet them again in my entire life... I fangirled for a week (maybe two I don't know) and I'll get over it, it's an obsessed teenage fangirling time in my life... I know I went on about finicky details, and stupid things like hugging and the way they smelled, and yes it was wonderful, but that doesn't mean I don't love my boyfriend, right... I'm completely in love with him but I'm allowed to fangirl, I'm allowed to have stupid obsessions because you know what, I could be obsessed with worse... So yes, I will tone it down, but I'm not going to turn it off because I'm a fan and I don't give a hoot if you hate it or not because I may not like everything you do?

So.. On that topic... Some pictures from the meeting will be below :D
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GUYS. GUYS. GUYS. OHMYGOSH

Hey guys!

Soo today Jack and Finn went back home to England, rigghhhht? And they were just in South Africa for the weekend but on a very rural, remote area so they didn't really do meet-ups or anything, and I couldn't get to the airport when they arrived 'cause you know... Education and stuff... buuuutt I was at the airport when they left today. We stood from 4pm until 7:30pm and nothing, absolutely nothing. I was devastated, but I was still thankful to Christina for taking me, and I couldn't expect her mom to wait forever...

And then by some miracle... As we were leaving i saw someone in a gray hoodie walking towards the boarding gates carrying some dinky little skateboard type thing... And someone holding a camera and someone walking behind in a navy blue shirt, also with a camera...

And then I made eye-contact with Jack Harries and started my fangirling session... We ran up to them and we said our hello's and we waited for Finnegan who was taking his sweet time with his smancy camera and navy blue shirt. The "small talk" (awkward umms and aahs as we're all so nervous and they're embarrassed) began and then my brain decided to shut down and I turned into a rambling oaf making myself look like a three year old with a helium balloon. I started shaking uncontrollably, like I couldn't even stand without my legs shaking... And I decided to blurt out in front of like 5/6 famous Youtubers and 4 other fans "CAN I HUG YOU OR IS THAT WEIRD" and so began my tirade of idiocy... After my extensively long hug with Jack which was awkward ('cause I could hear and feel him laughing) and innapropriate... You know, I had just turned myself into the Youtuber laughing stock and here I am not letting go of Jack for like 15 seconds... Oops? I don't really care, it was unbelievable... And he smells good. Yes, I said it, he smells amazing.
I then further continued to embarrass myself by deciding that through the crowd was the best way to get to Finn and shoved past and nearly knocked the poor man down in trying to hug him because... fangirling... Then the usual "what's your name, where you from, how old are you etc etc etc" began and I decided this meant they wanted to know my life story... So I rambled on to nobody in particular...
Then came the photos. Now we'd already taken one picture where I was next to Jack and that was great, but now I managed to get on the other side next to Finn... (No complaints here...) but I was shaking like a leaf... Which I mentioned to them on more than one occasion because my malfunctioning brain decided they cared, right...? And in trying to calm myself down I realized YOU'RE STANDING NEXT TO FINN HARRIES and then I stood quivering. Because all people start having mental breakdowns in front of celebrities right. Finn looked down at me (yes, down, he's SO tall!) and said "whoever is shaking, please stop." I GOT REPRIMANDED BY FINN HARRIES AND I DON'T EVEN MIND!! After the photo's they signed some pictures and so on, and then I showed them the drawing I did of them and now I regret it so much... They were going on about how good it was but the one face is so messed up! I'm pretty sure Finn thinks I have issues, he asked me who I thought he was (in the picture) and like the dodo I am, I decided to actually give my opinion and got it completely wrong... Double yay... We started dispersing and we said our goodbyes and I totally hugged them again.... :D
We started walking away to get something to drink after three straight hours of standing and adrenaline when we found... MAOAMS!! Now anyone who knows their videos at all, knows about their passion for Maoams.. So naturally we got two bags and ran bag to where they had congregated. As we stopped, Christina held the two bags out and handed one to Finn and one to Jack... Finn just laughed and said we were insane and Jack did the cutest little dance ever and we departed once more... Before we left my brain was like "oh, you thought I was better did you? Think again lady." AND I TURNED AROUND, MADE A LITTLE HEART WITH MY HANDS AND YELLED "BYEEE, LOVE YOU!" What. The. Heck. Brain?

I told them I loved them and walked away... I'm beginning to agree with Finn, I am delusional aren't I... While in the car on the way back I was an emotional wreck :$ I just sat Tweeting people and stuff.. And then the unbelievable happened. FINN FAVOURITED MY TWEET. The actual Finn, Finnegan Harries favourited my tweet about meeting them and the Maoams.

Yes.

Guys, I don't think it's describable what this evening meant to me, they're my role models and I was always so pessimistic about meeting them... And there I stood, hugging Jack Harries and telling Finn what my name was... This night was incredible... I don't even know what to say or how to end this off... Jack and Finn, as unlikely as it is,if you ever read this, I hope you realize the impact you made on a 15 year old girls' life tonight and that one day I might be able to meet you again and I won't be a shaking, rambling fool... Thank you for changing my life... And I yelled it in hysteria this evening, but really, I do love you boys and you have changed my life...

Please come back to South Africa one day, you impact lives that you don't even realize you impact on. We may not be your majority, or even feature in your top countries for fan-bases, but we're dedicated fans and we want to see you here again...

Thank again, we love you xx

Thanks for enduring my odd rumblings guys, all the usual please, follow, comment, add me on Facebook, follow me on Twitter, Instagram, Tumblr etc, I will follow back... Thanks guys, enjoy your week <3 love you xx

This is an informal dedication post (:

This won't happen a lot, but I feel like this is a special occasion.

Lynx, my gorgeous sister, I know you're facing some SERIOUSLY difficult things right now, but I just want today I'm so fortunate to have a sister like you. You're an incredible human being and you don't deserve any of the challenges life has thrown you, but I thank God that they were because they've shaped you into the amazing person that you are today.
Simmi, I only ever met you twice, but I know you touched my sister's life, and I am so grateful to you for that. I don't know why you did the things you did, but I pray that you are safe now and that you're happier <3 you were a beautiful girl and a role model to everyone who knew you.
Rest in peace <3

Taryn you amazing girl <3 one of my closest friends and an unbelievable inspiration to all. I know you just lost a friend, and I don't even know how to express my sympathy, to you or Lynx... It's bad enough that one person has to experience it but when two people you're so close to are experiencing the same thing... I'm lost for words <3
To everyone that knew Simmi or Yogi, I'm praying for you, for strength, courage and God's hand of healing and protection around you <3
Yogi, you were evidently a wonderful person, so many people love you and will cherish your memory forever, I never knew you but I know are with God now <3

Suicide is such a huge problem that as little as we like it, we may all have to face in our lives and that's devastating... I know of too many people, whether I've known them personally or not who have taken their lives for reasons only they will know. I promise that there IS a answer to your problems, fears and pain that doesn't involve taking your life. It is okay to not be okay, I promise.. If you feel like life isn't worth living anymore, think about the happy memories you have had, think about your future and where you could be in 10 years.. Working, a mother, a father, traveling, who knows you could even be famous! You'll never get there if you're too afraid to try, if you're too unwilling to even see tomorrow, how will you see the employment contract, your baby's face, the Eiffel Tower, your parents, friends, family, smiling as they watch you grow old and succeed... It's not the answer, things WILL get better, and at the risk of sounding like a Bible-punching preacher, God can and he will help you through it if you just ask him to. I'm not an expert at this guys, I have no history of being suicidal, but I know people who have been and I know of people that acted irrationally as a result of their emotions... Think it through... Is it really worth the pain, the effort even, the time and the pain everyone else will go through, why don't you just work through it, speak to someone, speak to me, I'm always available for anyone to speak to, I can't promise sound advice, but I can promise a shoulder, a punching bag...

Please contact me if you need to
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I know this was a very novice post but its such a huge thing to deal with I don't really know what else to door say <3 I love you guys and I'm always here for you. Thanks for reading my ramble <3 xx

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